by Soft Cell is today’s song. Most people know about their Tainted love, but not about all their other amazing tracks with interesting and different lyrics. This one I found quite fitting at the moment. For me, every autumn comes with depression. I don’t know why but the autumn really drags me down, every year. I start thinking about things I should do, obligations. How short life is, how hard it is. How I miss my old life, my life in Japan, my childhood. In autumn times, the future seems incredibly dark, and sometimes like it’s not planning on coming at all. Like my life has ended already. My peak has passed.
And the reason to why this song is so suitable, is because I know that it’s me in my mind, taking out these dangerous and negative feelings that makes me fall apart. It’s something I have always done. And this year, it is extra hard, since I have moved away from my secure Japan and all my friends there. I think about all the hard studies I have ahead and what I would have to do if I would fail or chose to quit, instead of thinking about all the fun I will have at uni and what an amazing career I would have ahead if I really started liking what I do.
However, I am starting to know myself. I know my flaws, I know how I react in different situations and that fear and uneasiness could be the product of irrelevant thoughts that I am making up for nothing. To be aware about problems, that’s a start. Then to process and heal them, that’s the next step. There are some good ways of turning rainy sad autumn days in to something good and bright. Like mushrooms. Tasty mushrooms to be picked in a beautiful forest, filled with yellow and red leaves. Chanterelles are the best. First of all, they are tasty. Also, there are plenty of them. And another important feature of theirs is that there is no chance you could take them for being some other kind of mushroom. In other words, you wont risk die of liver failure just because you eat shrooms from the forest next door. As for how to cook them, the best way is without any doubt to fry them with butter, a little salt and pepper. First all the water will come off, but if you are just patient enough the water will turn into vapour, and after some minutes the chanterelles will turn golden brown. Serve them warm on a piece of dark bread with butter. Yummie!
Another amazing thing to do in the chilly autumn is to go visit your lovely cousin and have a cup of tea accompanied by some delicious macarons that she just purchased in Paris. This is to be done while talking funny nonsense, discussing happy memories and great futures to come while maybe doing some studying. In that way, studying will be connected to something good. Well, the point is to make good things happen. To keep the good mood and ignore pointless negative thinking. There is really no bad sides of that. Really. Well, I will try and do some outfit blogging sometime soon. I have an awesome new APC top that I love, and I think you would think the same.
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